The wave
That beautiful face
That soothing sight
Caught me on her first look
Wasn’t sure was I alright?
Down she comes
descending stairs
with bouncing curly hair
And steady steps
The subtle voice
Dark and deep eyes
Shy to gaze
Feelings arise
Am I dreaming?
Is this real?
Could anyone tell me?
What’s that feel!
Butterflies in stomach
Every time she talks
Can’t help but notice
The way she walks
What charisma!
What a personality!
Enriched intellect
with ultimate morality
Sweet and soft
Serene and pure
Calm and quiet
Behaviour mature
Decided I
She’s my queen
If at all anybody
She’s the one
Spent hours
On her Facebook profile
How do I send a request?
Is it alright?
The next day’s sunshine
Brought me best
Opened my profile
To discover her request
Danced with joy
Thanked the lord
Still can’t believe
Should I record?
Talked for hours
Past, present and future
Exchanged numbers
with a positive gesture
Comes the day
To open up my love
As the feelings piled
Frustration arouse
Will she accept?
Will she reject?
Will I lose what I have?
Will I regret?
With great difficulty
With doubt and confusion
I put forward my feeling
With a positive decision
A dreadful silence
Covers the ambience
Is it a yes or no
Asked I with obedience
Neither she accepted
Nor she rejected
Words jumbled
Stayed I there confused
Then she explains
It’s not me
It’s the caste
Which won’t let make ‘we’
Struggled I day
Struggled I night
Convinced her
That I’ll reach an immense height
The height where it's just her and I
The height where opinions can’t reach
I’ll work hard
And make myself influential and rich
Promised I’ll take care
Of all her needs and desires
Will make her queen
And give love better than anybody can
Finally, she agrees
And accepts my love
Lies no limits
To joy, I drove
Spoke we day
Spoke we night
Colourful life
Colourful time
Cared for her
Day and night
Analysed safety of her
With all my might
Did all I could
Things possible
and impossible as well
with all my will
Saved bucks, brought her gifts
So did she
Beautiful dolls,
paintings and roses
World seemed colourful
Bright sunshine
Vibrant rainbows
Music everywhere
Stayed us in the centre
Of each other’s Universe
The day would start and end
with each other’s converse
Helped her I
So did she
In everything
From finance to degree
Built a fort of dreams
With my own hands
Just me and her
Prince and princess
Born I short-tempered
Immensely extrovert
Though harsh words on tongue
Huge amounts of love in heart
Every time I scold
Every time I raise my voice
Stayed there she silent,
Calm and composed
Months gone
Years rolled
Got I busy
In pursuit of success
No time!
I exclaimed
She begs for time
and gets refused every time
Planted a garden in her heart
But then I left unkempt
Vines and thorns left growing
Piercing her skin, mind and heart
In pursuit of life, forgot I
How precious she is
Took her for granted
and left her aside
She asks for time
time and again
Only to get abused
Again and again
Whenever we talk
Over the phone or text
Failed I to capture
The subtle emotions she threw
Forgot I the promise
Which were made
Grew I arrogant
Hurt her and disobeyed
Mocked her silence
Demanded her to change
Be an extrovert!
I exclaimed
Forgot I, she’s a human
And not a machine
Demanded perfection
Became inhumane
Pushed her to limits
Which should’ve never pushed
Put her in places
Which should she never have been
Reaches she to the pinnacle
Pinnacle which should never be explored
Pinnacle of pain, sorrow and grief
Stood I blind
Decides she
To end the pain
To leave me behind
Single she remains
Asked her I
To get back
“This is the last time”
Promised her I
Never to set her back
Back she comes
Trusting me
Only to discover the same old drama
Same old me
The day has come
For her to leave
Enough of drama
Enough of me
With a strong decision
And a will never to return
Moves she ahead
Leaving me alone
Realise I now
What a rare gem she was
After she has gone
Never to be back
Tears of blood
from my broken heart
As my heart weeps
To see us apart
So much we’ve shared
Just to walk away
But so much hurt
To want to stay
The moments we spent
memories made
Is it so easy
to make them fade?
Agreed I made mistakes
Far to be humane
But never stopped loving you
Please take me out of this pain
I love you so much,
Yet I push you to the point of breaking,
Yes the mistake is mine
Don’t be blind, see me struggling.
Look me in the eyes
Can’t you see my pain?
My heart is breaking,
I have no one to blame
They say everyone will love you
Once you are in grave
Will you love me
On that day?
If death is what it takes
To get your love
Oh lord!
Take me right now
The world looks so pale
Colourless and dull
There’s noise everywhere
Gifted dolls demonic
Karma is real
Karma is true
I’ve had enough
Someone, please take me through
I want her back
More than anything
No meaning lies
In this breathing
Pushed I my limits
Put my ego down
Down goes my self-respect too
Begging you, don’t let me down
Is it so easy to forget?
The smell of that rain
The music and the songs
The ride we went
Is it so easy to forget?
The joy we had
The love I showered
The care I did
Is it so easy to forget?
The struggle I did
To succeed in life
To keep us together
Is it so easy to forget?
The wind, the grass
And the dawn
How can you put me down?
Is it so easy to forget?
The dreams we built
Long drives late night
Deep talks rooftop
How can I break
The fort I built so strong
It’s just hollow
With me and my regrets along
Is it so easy to forget?
The love you realised
when you held my hand
And cried
Wish I a reset button
And a pause button tool
Reset the things I’ve done
And pause the moments beautiful
How do I convince her
That she’s is the love of my life
Never did I stop
To love her with all my might
Lie here I
In deadlock
Neither I can move ahead
Nor Back
The process in my heart
Depends on you
Refuse you to allow me
Leaving me due
How do I heal someone
who doesn’t want to heal?
How to make someone feel
who doesn’t want to be felt?
How do I fix someone
who doesn’t want to be fixed?
How do I help someone
that doesn’t want to be helped?
How do I stop someone
who has already left?
How to infix someone
that doesn’t want to be infixed?
How do I cry & beg & scream
for the pain to end
when I wake up in the morning
And it happens all over again?
Don’t weep
Don’t try
Don’t stress
Don’t cry
That is what says
the voices in my head
As I try to close my eyes
And force myself to bed
